im putting on a gown and a stole,the whole set. for my graudation ceremony on December 4th. Yes AH! im gonna have fun with fizzio and all. but black and white. still? haiz ok. school is stil school til the last they see me.
had fun with my long time friends yesterday, deedee and antonine. hard work and good talk. and ben and jerry's. hehe.
and i stil so inlove with the mat.



i know. i have not been writing in the longest time. i admit im 0o-so-Lazy. i do tweet,fb and read my emails but not write. i guess i dont feel like sharing to the whole world how my world is. bits and pieces,yes i may publish but not to the extend of writing the whole book,just a paragraph or 2.so let's do that. i am searching for a job.one that could fulfil me. instead of tiring me out each day. i am bored with cbtl. there i said it. i want something new. either i find something to stay for or go.ok i shall catch up on my favourite show ,the hills. chao.



happy birthday,rodiva.



ok.i admit.i have become one of those girly bloggers that blog about their significant other. he is significant,hence and therefore. right this moment,i will gladly declare that i am missing him much although i just sent him back to camp less than a few hours ago. it just amazes me how well we got along.
for example,sunday morning. he waited for me as usual under the block to go hang out with me to just buy newspaper and a few grocery items. had our breakfast of soy nutrients at the famous pasar block 85. his without sugar,mine definitely with sugar and some grass jelly. plus tau huay and char kway. we shared a table with 2 apeks drinking their kopis. that is good breakfast with boyfriend. we spent the day doing the daily things together. sewed his missing button and torn shorts. watched him play soccer.i have never been interested in soccer until i met him. what can i say,the boy has talent. after all that, he fried 2 eggs each and we ate with bread. so delish and simple.
on friday,we actually had our first huge misunderstanding and egos clash.it was kinda silent though coz i switched off my fon. i cannot and will not deal with verbal abuse.by that,i mean using vulgarities when he is angry.i do not blame him for the way he is. his life is like that.but i told him there is no need to use those words to me. bla bla bla and things just went back to normal. i even laughed after dramatically crying walking off. when he held my hand,i just could not be so emotional anymore and we laughed and made up. kisses later.
anyhoos,puasa is coming. and i hope he does fast with his hectic schedule.i will try my best too. i cannot wait to try the kebaya i had altered to suit me better. i love the feeling of ke-insafan on first day of raya. i can just cry just by hearing the solat raya playing live on air.
i will find a full time job soon after raya.becoz i let my lil sis continue her degree first. its her time now. so well,i may have to be mentally prepared to deal politics and hectics of all kinds.

i am now sleepy,hungry (coz my stomach is literally growling but im feeling lazy to feed it) and
missing the mat.







see his happy face up there? im going to miss him.no amount of words can describe the sense of loss im feeling right now. he has been with me since the first day we met. almost everyday we do our daily things together. from going to the market,to hanging out with each other's frens and taking care of my cats. almost everyday we feed each other n make sure each other is ok. he depends on me - cutting his nose hairs n nails n holding on to his cash so he doesnt overspend. i depend on him - to carry my things around and rationalise things. sure,there are many other factors.but one thing we both depend on without question is the affection,the manje-ness for each other. u all can puke all u want but that is how we live.seems like we are married right? i feel that way a lot. and i await for the reality of a dowry worth $12345 in 5 years or so. hehe.






memang sah pon muker awak mcm bapak orang.hehe.tak kisah muker awak mcm maner.ur my baby dinosaur.hehe.
he is going away to camp on 3rd august 2009,for 6 whole weeks. he finally got accepted to join aetos police.i may not agree with his choice but i will support him for whatever his decision is.daddy could find him a better job prospect but he needs time to learn to see the bigger picture.how i wish daddy knew how much azman means to me. but its good enough daddy is talking him and friends. insyaallah someday daddy will accept azman like his own son. azman needs a dad more than anything else..



i am literally exhausted.
been playing hide and seek with the authorities regarding my pets.
part of me is cursing the bugger who complaint against my family n i.
part of me is thinking whats the point. my friends are cursing her for me.
so i hope ur happy.
let me quote what one of my friends said to comfort me.
" im sure God will punish her."
haha.for a few seconds in my moment of loss,she made me laugh.
i am thankful to have her as my manager cum friend. she let me get back to work once im done dealing with the craziness. i feel guilty that i cannot help out,yet i feel so tired of this s**t at the same time.in the twist of events,my mat was somehow was formerly introduced to my dad. daddy has no clue yet,but atleast he has met him n his 2 bugger friends.n daddy didnt even nag at me for having boy-friends.oh amazing. i am thankful that he helped me kept my fave cat and 2 kits for a night at his place. although my cats didnt eat the food he made for them,i saw the way he made it that really touched me.he tried to feed them the way my family n i do. rice mashed with whiskas cat food. by the way my cats smelled the food,he didnt do a good job but he tried. i was touched beyond words.kuki only ate wen i feed her.i feel terrible for stressing my cats with the situation. right now,they r home and cuddling each other in this cool weather on my sofa. how cute n comforting.
a word of warning to all pet owners who are living in flats; ur not allowed to keep any kind of pets at all. if u do,the relevant authorities will close one eye.but make sure u dont invite unnecassary people into ur home,they might complaint against u under ur own nose.only when there is a complaint will they then take action against u.
i am resting at home with my babies and cleaning the house extra extra clean.

please pray for my babies safety.